if you could only see the way

reasontohate @ 2006-02-27T18:13:00

2006-02-27T23:14:12Z

1 and counting...

reasontohate @ 2006-01-28T12:34:00

2006-01-28T17:34:55Z

2 and counting...

reasontohate @ 2005-12-28T22:39:00

2005-12-29T03:39:35Z

3 and counting

reasontohate @ 2005-11-28T22:31:00

2005-11-29T03:32:15Z

4 and counting

reasontohate @ 2005-11-15T16:45:00

2005-11-15T21:46:11Z

Sweet Marie, there's a hole where your heart should be
And on the hill she's begging for a harmony
Sweet Marie, there's a hole where your heart should be
And on the hill she's begging for a harmony

What beautiful lies you've been told
What terrible truths drown your soul
She hides behind all my lies

Oh you need to be loved
Oh you need to be loved
Oh you need all my love tonight - all my love

Sweet Marie, how cold your body can be
And on the hill she's begging for a harmony
Such a beautiful kiss in the face of fear
Such a beautiful song burns through your ears
She hides behind all my lies

Oh you need to be loved
Oh you need to be loved
Oh you need all my love tonight - all my love

Oh you need to be loved
Oh you need to be loved
Oh you need to be loved
Oh you need...

<3

reasontohate @ 2005-10-27T14:00:00

2005-10-27T18:01:49Z

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
Because of you
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt

Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you

reasontohate @ 2005-10-12T21:25:00

2005-10-13T01:25:24Z

i dont

want you

to love me

anymore.

<3

reasontohate @ 2005-10-09T02:30:00

2005-10-09T06:30:54Z

there are just certain conflicts that i cannot resolve

reasontohate @ 2005-10-04T21:59:00

2005-10-05T01:59:12Z

... and sometimes it just wasnt long enough

reasontohate @ 2005-09-27T01:03:00

2005-09-27T05:07:43Z

and sometimes when i think
its only of you
but when i wish for what i hope
it brings me back to the beginning

when time is no longer on our side
who will be there
and who will be mine when i no longer
have the patience to hold on
when my world crumbles down on me
all i want to see is your eyes
but knowing that your gone
is enough to keep me holding on
so dont cry, dont fight, dont bother
because in a second its gone
and there is no going back on what we had
just remember...

there are some things in this world
that we just werent meant to endure

<3

reasontohate @ 2005-09-14T16:48:00

2005-09-14T20:48:28Z

new shirt

new hair

new piercing

reasontohate @ 2005-09-12T22:46:00

2005-09-13T02:58:11Z

baby, keep it on the low.
if youre playin me please dont let me know,
because my heart cant take it anymore.

visiting my girlies...

me and colls MATCHING hats!!

i got bored when they went to class :(

but its okay because their room was so ill...

>> more from a while back>>

... wake me up when september ends

reasontohate @ 2005-08-24T14:06:00

2005-08-24T18:06:34Z

theres something about the way you look
that makes me think it was always your fault.

<3

reasontohate @ 2005-08-20T18:52:00

2005-08-20T22:52:53Z

the ex's new g is the only person on >>my<< most visited list.
i dont know how i feel about that.

www.freewebs.com/buxomandbrash

:check it :: you wont:

<3

reasontohate @ 2005-08-14T16:31:00

2005-08-14T23:31:54Z

there are some things you just don’t lie about
cuz you gotta keep it real and
there are some things you just don’t talk about
no matter how you’re feelin
cuz its not your battle to be fightin
so don’t make things get escalated
or you’ll forget what it was all about
and your whole being will get desecrated
sit back and relax, let the music take you over
let it lead you where you want to be
so your mind can have a minute to rewind
let your soul and your body see
that word play can have you act a different way
although the scars will still be dug
there are better ways to keep a life worth livin
from being stolen from a thug
go ahead and shoot him he’ll just end up dead
but if I end up dead, you’ll end up dead
the only way we’re gunna solve this
is to bring back what was said
and the only thing on our minds
shouldn’t be “whos next?”
it all started out from a misunderstanding
how’d this situation get so complex?
all the words and the curses
hold nothing against these verses
so keep it up, keep actin tough
until it all gets real rough
till you cant take it anymore
and we’re breakin down the door
slammin faces on the floor
shread your body to its core
then its over before you know it
and we end where we began
nothings changed just yet
we got the same fists at hand

reasontohate @ 2005-08-08T13:56:00

2005-08-08T17:57:01Z

its funny how the situation changes when your suddenly not getting what you want

<3

reasontohate @ 2005-08-07T14:33:00

2005-08-07T18:33:29Z

I just know
When you put your hands on me
I feel sexy
And my body turns to gold
i just know
When you put your hands on me
I feel ready
And I lose my self control

<3

reasontohate @ 2005-08-04T15:47:00

2005-08-04T19:47:40Z

take me and break me
and make me strong like you.

<3

reasontohate @ 2005-08-01T11:53:00

2005-08-01T16:00:19Z

so theres a fly swimming around a pond.
then theres a frog sitting on a lily pad in that pond and he says to himself if that fly comes down another 4 imches im gunna have me some lunch
theres also a fish in the water who at the same time says to himself if that fly comes down another 4 imches the frogs gunna go for it, fall in the water and then im gunna have me some lunch
theres also a bear who at the same time says to himself if that fly comes down another 4 imches the frogs gunna go for it, fall in the water, the fish is gunna eat it and then im gunna have me some lunch
theres also a hunter who at the same time says to himself if that fly comes down another 4 imches the frogs gunna go for it, fall in the water, the fish is gunna eat it, the bears going to eat the fish and then im gunna shoot the bear and im gunna have me some lunch
theres also a sandwich in the hunters pocket and a mouse on the ground and at the same time the mouse says to himself if that fly comes down another 4 imches the frogs gunna go for it, fall in the water, the fish is gunna eat it, the bears going to eat the fish and the hunters gunna shoot the bear, the sandwich will fall out of the hunters pocket and then im gunna have me some lunch
theres also a cat who at the same time says to himself if that fly comes down another 4 imches the frogs gunna go for it, fall in the water, the fish is gunna eat it, the bears going to eat the fish and the hunters gunna shoot the bear, the sandwich will fall out of the hunters pocket, ill jump on the mouse and then im gunna have me some lunch

so sure enough the fly comes down 4 inches and the frog eats the fly, the fish eats the frog, the bear eats the fish, the hunter kills the bear, the sandwich falls out of his pocket, the mouse eats the sandwich but the cat misses and falls into the pond.
the moral: if the fly comes down 4 inches, the pussy gets wet

reasontohate @ 2005-07-28T13:15:00

2005-07-28T17:16:08Z

* there are some things in this world that we just werent meant to endure *

i had a revilation.
if the world has its way with her, she'll bring it to its knees.

... he who angers you also controls you

<3

reasontohate @ 2005-07-26T19:20:00

2005-07-26T23:20:42Z

thousands of people at hampton beach today..
what are the odds that shannon parks her ass right next to mine?

<3

how strange.. its true

2005-07-19T22:50:17Z

1. Pick your birth month.
2. Cross out anything that doesn't apply to you.
3. Bold what best applies to you.
4. Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a journal cut

JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hard-working and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hard-working and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but those not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home décors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hard-working. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hard-working. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defence. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and travelling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hard-working. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

reasontohate @ 2005-07-18T14:59:00

2005-07-18T19:01:11Z

reasontohate @ 2005-07-14T15:39:00

2005-07-14T19:39:43Z

reasontohate @ 2005-07-13T22:17:00

2005-07-14T02:17:43Z

what is done cannot be undone
and to redo is far more energy than the task requires

<3